From time to time, doubts come, casting a shadow in my being, my thoughts, my outlook.

Where did you come from?

What happened in the past that created the current you?
The shadows – of uncertainty, of critical self judgement

Can you do well?

Are you good enough to carry through whatever that you are doing, or want to do?

What triggered these shifting shadows?

Looking deeper, images start to surface –

Past failure in relationships – the pain associated with conversations held, disappointment, hurt, wanting
something else other than what is given.

The various versions and ages of me, being there, heart empty, looking for someone else to fill the void,
and that someone could not deliver, at least to what I needed within.

Nobody can truly fill that void within my heart, within my being, within me….

I gently go there, touching her, embracing her – you have everything within you…

All the love that you are seeking to fill you up – it is within you, always has and always will….

You are beautiful.

All the essence needed for this life has always been within you…

You are enough, you are loved, you are love.

You are love to the people near you, in your own universe.

You have enough light and love within to sustain whatever is to come.

You just have to see it within yourself, so that you can see who you really are, your true essence, your
true Self

Then peace will come, acceptance will come, loneliness and neediness will leave you.

You are beautiful as you are…

Books often times tell us that we learn from the past and let the past go. Plan for the future but not to
worry about it.

But my question is if there was hurt, pain, disappointment, misconception of your true self in the past
that were not healed, can you really let go of the past?

Or are you merely suppressing all that into shadows?

Will they really go away?

Can you really not worry about the future and only plan?

How good will your plan be? Or how free will it be? How life allowing will it be?

Gentleness to myself, kindness to myself, love to myself…

It takes time, and takes many sessions of going back to the past to heal the different versions of me,

Then little by little I can let go of the past, the shadows, the baggage, the weight…

Maybe then I can see the beauty, the silver lining behind each dark clouds – they are the tapestry woven
into a beautiful life, a rich life. A life that allows, accepts, and loves.

I am on that journey…