This is an understanding obtained from my meditations
In the last few days, during meditation, the right side of my chest seemed to need more attention, more
breathing into. I obeyed
A sense of healing, being heard, being seen, being understood, albeit very slowly, gradually come
through
I search, I ask, I wait, I sense, through my being, not so much my mind
What are you saying to me? What do you want me to see?
I continued to breath, taking in the love of the spirit and light
Breathing them all into my heart region, towards the right, towards the source of that sensation
Slowly, I see
It is the allowing, the giving of time and space and just be
The free artistic side of our existence, the I Am
It is calling out, telling me – Let me live with you too
Let me be a part of you, just as the other part of you have been there with you for so long:
The goal oriented-ness, the drive to be productive, the do as many things as I can handle, the constant
monitoring of not wasting my life away
In front of me stands the platform of time
The present is the narrow crevice between the past and the future
The past and future each occupies infinite space in that horizon. One stretches all the way behind it, and
one stretches infinitely in front of it
The Now is this narrow gap
How difficult it is to be in that space and not wonder immediately to either the front or the back
My heart calls out to me…. Allow, just allow, allow the time and space without boundaries, like the
present moment.
Step into it, so you can be with me too
Not just the hard, strong, demanding, active, masculine side … There is the soft, the artistic, the beyond
space and time me in you too…
I step into the gap.
At first it is so narrow, and my mind wants to get out
I gently say to her, please let it go. Let me be, even if just for a moment
With my mind backing away, I started to sense with my being, maybe my soul, the surrounding
In that moment, magically, all dimensions expand
No longer it is a narrow gap
Now it is a space, deep down within me, that has no boundaries
There are no limitations of time and space
There are no limitations of any kind
Everything exists. They simply are. Nobody is in any rush of any process. They simply just exist and are
As I am
It is peace, it feels like I can just breath, and is good enough.
A beautiful space…
In there I realized why I am choosing not to multi task any more
Because everything that I do, I want to do it with my full attention
Whatever that I am doing deserves my full attention, and I deserve to be in the moment of that full
attention, to enjoy the connection
That is the only time that things become real, and I become real
When I look at an object as it is, the connection happens, and we are linked, the subject and object
That is what happens in the soulscape
And it is beautiful
So what if I cannot accomplish as many things as if I multitask?
What really matters in my life anyway? If I only have so many years left to live?
Not multi-tasking helps me reduce distractions in my life
To live more simply
To see what is really important
To the basics.
And maybe by that time, I will be truly living
Living a life that can take in everything around me as it is,
As a small child does
And connect with all the elements around me, in spirit and in energy
