This is what I saw and felt in my meditations recently

As I go into meditation, the right side of my chest feels like there is something in the works, brewing.

Go look deeper. It seems to be saying

I breathe.

All my attention follows my breath – breathing in the light without, breathing out into my heart region

The light I breathed in stayed with me, following the path, lighting the way, giving out warmth and
healing energy

All my senses honing in on the path, all the way to the end

In and out

What do you want to show me?

My mind, ever so helpful, observes, analyzes, and wanders into different thoughts.

I gently calm her down – it’s ok, take a break, we will be ok. I need some space now

Let me listen to the other parts of me – intuition, senses, feelings, without judgement, without
evaluation

Then Acceptance called out to me

The spirit within me is the Self – connecting to all the elements of the universe, their inner energy

It has no boundaries, no limitation in any dimensions. It is free, it is infinite

But I also have a body that this Self resides in, lived in the past and is still living

It retains all the memories of things that have happened, and watches the current events unfold.

The chaos of the world continues, bombarding the senses and the heart

The dark and the light, the strong and the weak – energy of different nature, colors, strengths,
dimensions, speeds, fluxing, flowing

In the state of the Self, I saw the life I have lived – from childhood to now

The encounters, experiences, episodes, segments, come in like pictures, one after another

The toil, the pain, the hardships along the way in various forms

But I continued pushing forward, regardless of the circumstances, or the nature of the challenges

How hard I tried at each turn – raising my kids in good times and difficult times, times with laughter,
times with worry and prayers

Family, friends, intimate partners – the love and happiness in gathering, the sadness, despair when parting ways

The tender love within me, always accompanied by hope, is right there

Then come heartbreaks. They leave their marks on the journey too

I tried to achieve goals, often times simultaneously, for different aspects in my life

The Self sees this woman, this being in the form of a human being in this world, traversing the journey

The attempts, the overcoming, the tenacity. The I in this world

Something inside drove me forward, no matter what

I see the people in my universe – my children, their lives, my brothers and their families, my friends,
neighbors, on and on

Love is always flowing, weaving throughout the tapestry.

But at the same time, insecurity, anxiety, protective shells like arrogance, judgement, jealousy also
weave through this beautiful tapestry

I see the nuances of daily lives, embedded with richness that I often failed to notice, as I was so busy
tasking, accomplishing, doing

The world now is full of chaos, different energy fluxing in and out, like currents in the ocean

My aging dog, how long will he be with me?

All that… all the elements around me and within me

The pictures are so vibrant with colors, almost ready to jump out at any time! My pictures. Pictures of
my life

I ACCEPT… I accept all of them. From the bottom of my heart.

From the depth of my being, my soul, I accept all the things, people, events that have come to me

I accept the entire picture of my life Now as It Is, and everyone, everything in it As They Are

I accept whatever Is to Come

The world will always be as it is. And life is lived moment by moment, full of little details, nuances,
chances to express love, gratitude, also chances to be sad, to be angry, to be fearful, to be….

I accept all of that.

Over and over, I see the events lined up my journey

I can feel them, and I say to myself, I accept… I accept whatever was, whatever is, whatever is to come

My ego tries to protest, but… but…

I answer it with I Accept. I Accept.

This is life, this is what I am to experience

As this process continues, I see that acceptance clears the way, creates new space that I have not
experienced before

When I fully accept something, the starting point begins

The starting point to feel, to see, to experience, to taste its full flavor, without prejudice, without
judgement, without preconception, without a mind saying should or should not.

From here, I move on towards this rich life, well grounded

As I continued to breathe, the image of a tree came alive, with its roots going deeper and deeper

I accept

The roots continue to stretch into the earth, grounding the tree, providing the nutrients of peace, and
love too

The peace within myself, with myself, with all the elements in my life

The struggle stops, self-criticism stops, the task master within takes a break

I returned to my roots, to my own nature, at ease with myself, finally…

Before this, how often my tree swayed in the wind, with the wind, seeking approval from others,
seeking security from without, seeking love elsewhere, chasing the wind, when all this is within myself,
my own roots

How difficult has the struggle been?

Return to my own nature, at ease with my nature, as Nature is at ease with herself

Maybe this is what Taoism’s Wu Wei means – everything is done according to one’s nature. Then it is
smooth sailing. There is no forced action going against my own grain when I follow my nature, my
intuition

I continue to breathe

Gradually, out of Acceptance emerge Peace, Love, Courage

My tree is now grounded and secure

From here I stretch – stretch for the stars! For love, for beauty, for life! I grow

In this infinite space, beyond time, beyond all things…

In my energy realm, my spirit realm, my universe