Gospel of Philip – A slave seeks only to be free and does not seek the master’s estate….. but a
child claims the father’s inheritance.
The ability to receive, unconditionally
Without the mind analyzing, equating, or feeling not quite deserving
Did not come to me until just recently, and I am 59 years old!
Always give back what you receive – a common human relations gesture
The back-and-forth flow, or a constant evaluation
In relationships with people, even with the heavens…
Recently in my meditation, I arrived in the space of the Tao
In the past, after receiving from the Tao what I needed for the day,
I always proceeded to give all I can back, back to the Tao, back to humanity, back to someone
In one sense, it is from gratitude. Sheer gratitude for everything
In another sense, it is a way for me to ask the flow not to stop coming my way
The flow that contains all the good, warm, and abundant energy
A very subtle negotiation with the Tao, as if it mattered.
This thinking pattern is what I was raised with – be grateful and responsible
But from my own life experience, it somehow cuts short my ability to receive unconditionally, fully
Because my heart is not completely open
It is limited by the trained thinking pattern of having to give back, evaluating
But recently, in that space, what I experienced was beyond that
Removing all conditions of any belief systems or value systems
I opened my heart wide, without any thoughts, just to simply receive
To let it come to me, through me, completely and fully
It came, it expanded, it flowed through, it filled all the space around me with me in it
As water in the ocean, it is all around a water droplet and the droplet is within that water
Came with this complete permeation was rich nourishment to my soul, to my being
Little by little, I am returning to my original Self
So that I can be as gentle as the summer breeze, or soft and easy as the spring water
My sorrows touched, heard, understood
All is well, it seems to say
You are home
You may receive all that I have….
Deep in peace and warmth, I realized that I don’t have to always try so hard…
Just open my eyes to see… It’s there, always there – the beauty of this earth and in the spiritual realm, the energy
Open my heart to feel, to receive
Little by little, to be restored….
Then if I live by that which is within me, everything else comes out naturally, without any conscious effort.
Just like water nourishes everything – it is its nature, not because it tries to
Maybe this is what Taoism calls it Action through Non-action?
